Amuzing Story of Concern

Its amazing that a little change on Fetlife can yield an amuzing situation.
I recently changed my profile status on my kink account to “in a relationship.” Not because I am in one, but ever since I recently uploaded a sexy picture I have been innovated with “please fuck me” emails.  A friend, a lovely submissive she is, messaged me out of concern.  Evidentally a friend of hers had recognized my recent pic of being a home of a Dom she had played with some time ago.  They were both worried that “my relationship” was with him.  Evidentally this friend of a friend felt “rushed” after playing with said Dom and she felt he was in it to just get laid. I ofcourse asked if the friend enjoyed herself during play…Ofcourse the answer was yes.  To this I chuckled, in 14 days we have gotten together 12 times, sometimes play, other times “cuddles”. Cuddles is his term for vanilla inspired sex.

Why does this matter?  Well first, it matters because I realized just how kind and caring my friend is.  She was simply looking out for me.  Second, because I realized that this Dom may be more than just a playmate.  He has never “rushed me”, in fact he can’t get enough of me.  Third, because I wanted him to know, someone felt rushed…he would not have wanted to give that impression…or so I thought. Evidently per the Dom, she was hot but “lacked intelligence” and sadly it got to where he just couldn’t hear her voice anymore without slapping her.  This led the way to a conversation in what I could do to get him to slap me… he doesn’t like it when someone talks about a subject she has no knowledge on, Never! Expect to see his phone, especially after playing one time oh and this is funny…she kept trying to get him to eat chocolate!! He is Vegan and very health conscious. I
took mental  notes for future when I’m craving pain 😉  maybe I will bring over chocolate cupcakes with hopes of him making me eat them all….Yum!!


A path to more discovery

I have continued to explore my needs, wants, and desires.  The Dom I recently have met has been a large factor in this.  For the first time in years, I am able to escape my worries and release control to another.  He did ask me to submit, and unfortunately I do not feel I can at this time, as I feel I could not be the submissive he would deserve or the kind I would want to be.  We have decided to devlop our vanilla relationship with occasional play.
However, I am finding myself silently submitting to him even when we are in vanilla mode.  I will continue to take things slow and make sure this is a good match for myself and him.   I am fortunate he respects and accepts this.  He may continue to look for a submissive deserving of him, and if he chooses this I wish him the best luck in finding her.  Perhaps in time I can become the sub I want to be and he needs. 
For now, I am having a fantastic time re-visitng my submissive side.